Daddy

Daddy ...........  That strong man with a gentle smile that make u feel so safe in the crazy world around you.  How the memories of your unconditional love still helps me to find my way through this ever changing world.  How the warmth of your love still cover me as if your protection never ceased.

The old familiar songs would play and in the memories of yesterday still lies the hope that one day we will meet again.  One thing I remember most is that I played the game of draught with him for years and he will always beat me -- then came one day I finally won -- I never wanted to play after that -- he smiled and said --- "Did u really win or did I let you win?" Haha -- I asked "so which one is it?  His answer was -- "The one that you know is true".  Why did you let me win then I asked --- his smile said it all -- I love you!

How your presense made me feel that my mistakes was not mistakes,  they were just steps being taken to reach the best of who I am.  How your punishment would put that fear that doing wrong was not an option.  How the many lessons I learnt in your silence is still with me today.  How your messages lies in the music I dont even understand. 

Thank you my beautiful father -- thank you for cubing my fruits and placing a fork in it, thank you for allowing me to suck my thumb on your lap and play with your ear.  Thank you for sacrificing for me to have what  I needed and wanted,  thank for the journey of trials and tribulations that is still unfolding.  Thank you for sitting with me nights upon nights when I didnt feel well, for making ginger tea that I hated so much.  Thank you for knowing all my mistakes even before I did and for taking my hand in yours.  Thank you for asking all the masqueraders at Carnival time for their banners so that I can go home and pretend to be them. Looking back now your love was in every act, in every smile and even in every stern word.

The lessons we learn from our parents is one of the most integral part of our upbringing.  Sometimes we miss those lessons until we become a parent ourselves and then we understand, but the lessons are never lost -- we just see it later on in life.  In every memory lies the hidden message that brings us to that special awareness. 

Thank u dad for the gift of u :)

Divine Unfolding

The canvas is empty -- paint a picture -- write a story -- share a smile or just love unconditionally.  Whatever we choose to put on this canvas always have something higher at work for us and within us.    The colours on this canvas is used to create perfect rainbows in the end.

Divine unfolding - those sacred words -- what does it mean ? For me its everything that just IS.  Whenever I meditate and I sit and listen to what is told to me - I always hear --- "I am with you".  He is always with us touching our souls with every step we take.  His divine plan unfolds in everything we see.. I heard the saying quite a few times --- "We can plan all we want but HE is the best of planners. 

This sacred unfolding happens to us all the time -we just dont realise it  at the time.  Time often goes by and when we look back we know whatever happened brought us to a better place.  We are all unique -- we love differently,  however how we choose to splash the paint on our canvas will determine the picture we look at in the end.  If we look closely at the colours we would realise each colour whether dark or light is unfolding to bring us that beautiful picture.

We create everyday with the power of our thoughts, what is within projects outwards and our world is created.  The signs we get, the messages received, the people that step in and even the ones that step out are all unfolding perfectly.

The Divine - his love so vast for all his creation.   Im sure each one of us that closes our eyes and really concentrate on his love will hear the words "I am with you" :)  Trust that.

When we trust the divine plan and we go with it - flow with it and FEEL all that IS then we are at the core of our being!

The Book of Love

Im sure we continue on this journey wondering how we will find what our soul searches for. Sometimes we stop and think we found it but then life pushes us to a limit to question our decisions. We always find people that we have connections with on this path - but when we find them or they find us do we shift our world? Do we question every decision asking if it was a good one or not?

 

Dont question -- be free to feel what your guidance tells you. If you silence yourself you will find yourself smiling to the endless possibilities out there. The people on our path are our teachers -- every single one of them -- the chapters in our book of love are sometimes bookmarked by the intensity we feel for others and how it has impacted on our journey.

 

What does our soul search for ?? Why do we sit and say sometimes -- is this "IT"? What the soul searches is completeness -- the bliss of finding who you truly are in this beautiful world and on this beautiful journey.

 

I call it the Book of Love as everyone knows  -- "Everything is for us and not to us." Every single meeting with others is here out of Love for us -- to push us to the very core of our being - to understand who we are and to answer that question we all long to answer – “what is our purpose here?”.

 

Some of these people stay with us on our journey to ourselves and some change direction to follow their own path -- their own truth and turn the pages in their own Book of Love. Sometimes we are left heartbroken, we are left trying to find a way to survive. There are love stories that push us to unbearable limits and we try to find that balance to help us to move on.

Love is not based on a touch or the things that others would do to prove it to you. It is felt deep within that you just "know". Its the inner voice talking to us and in that you get the comfort of how imperfectly perfect you are.

 

Some say "I love you" but most times there are limits. Limits to what they can do or what they wont do -- how much they can give because they look for what you give out to match that. Unconditional love is just what it says "unconditional". I smile sometimes when I hear people around me -- I sometimes hear -- "when you give me what I need I will do what you want me to do" ever heard that ?? what about -- "U dont deserve anything because you did not give me what I wanted”.

 

Funny isnt it ?? We say we love others more than life itself sometimes but we wait to see what we get first before we can show our love. Love is not based on what you get back.  Its based on going within and allowing that light to shine out, rippling over with unconditional love for all. In doing that it creates that purity of Love that we all seek and in shining that light for others you will find the beauty of all that IS.

 

So when next you go back to your chapters and you read the bookmarked pages -- smile -- they were the most beautiful teachers. The book of Love is never closed -- the pages just keep being written as we go along on this beautiful journey :)

 

Leaders

Ever wondered what is the difference between a "Boss" and a "Leader"?.  I truly believe a Leader is one who is servicing others.  His character shows in his actions and his deeds.  How many times we come across bosses that only care to make money and not care for their workers?. You see those same bosses giving to the famous charities only to have the name out there but with their own people who work diligently for years are not even spoken to. 

I am very much aware of people around me and the people that I choose to take into my space.  The characters stand out more than you know.  I would know this because I am blessed to be someone who works for a Leader not a Boss.  His unselfish acts, his generosity and his kindness speaks volumes.  His Leadership brings togetherness and love.  He touches each soul on a different level and he is far beyond the greed for money.  He loves it - he wants it but he gets it because of his unwavering commitment to serving others.

Three weeks ago as most would know the compound I live on was flooded out.  One of first to call was him -- I was in tears at the time -- his first words were "Nothing to worry about -- I will help you".  Sometimes things are said by others and they have no idea the impact  they have on others with just little words.  I knew this to be true as over the years he have never failed in his determination to make "his children" successful.  U see the difference to me is this -- he knows what is needed and when it is needed.  He just knows.  He knows when to push you to the limit of yourself to be successful and then he knows when its time to give generously without a question.  His light is more than each one of us that work for him can ask for. 

His richness goes beyond the financial aspect of his life and he continues to grow daily.  Leadership is never easy -- everyone wants their ego stroked from time to time -- but with him its a fleeting moment.

We often hear the saying "Teach someone how to fish instead of handing them the fish".  There are some circumstances where you need to hand the fish -- and some you teach how to fish.  The difference lies in the love and compassion you feel for others.  We cant make a difference to the whole world all at once but it starts with the "man in the mirror. 

A company is not a company without the "people".  When I look at companies now and you see the "Boss"  I often ask myself -- wonder which one --- Leader or Boss??

Mere Raam

I was listening to a song called "Mere Raam"  it means "My God" and it stirred so many emotions.  As I sat I closed my eyes and I can still type this while the song is playing. I can surely feel what it means and I can feel all the divine energies flowing through me and for me.  Two simple words "My God" what does it mean to you ?? 

 There is music that sings to your soul and you will feel connected to it - something we are all familiar with but it does something within us

I get to ask all the questions and I get to feel the answers -- I get to say "why?" and the light of the divine answers it on so many levels -- we are never apart.  And the tears would flow and the emotions are so very high when you are in this dance.  No one can tell you how you should feel and why you should - you embrace the emotions coming out and you take with you the lessons it teaches. 

When I look around me I see all the people whose light connects with mines and they are shining brighter than I have ever seen them.  U get so everwhelmed with emotions -- u are LOVE.

All dressed in white sitting by the ocean as the sun sets listening to the music of the soul and connecting with the Divine.  Basking in all that IS.  You are always protected.  Each and every soul has a journey -- its their journey -- their path to follow  and you have yours.  The souls that stay with you no matter what are the ones that would bring to you the light.  They shine their light for you to follow and in following them you reach level after level until you reach that state that IS.

I am not at that level but the journey in getting there is so profound --mystery after mystery. 
Let your journey be free to feel -- feel all the emotions that you need to feel -- love them and embrace them in your own way.  

So choose the music that sings to your soul and connect in a way that is beyond anything you have ever known.   ..................................  Feel your Raam

A Vacation

I read today"Instead of worrying when your next vacation is going to be, maybe you should set up a life you dont have to run away from".  True isnt it?  We dont like Monday mornings as we dont like to find our way to the workplace.  When we find the joy in our jobs and do it with passion then the rewards are endless. 

I remember when my boss sold the Company - I was devastated.  He sold the Company to friends of his and was quite confident that the culture there would not change.  It didnt for a couple years but then things inevitably did.  I was not happy there anymore and it showed in how I did my job and how much I got back from it.  Over a year or so things changed drastically and my previous boss got wind of all that was happening.  He with his kind heart decided to start a new Company and called me.  I was one of the first 5 people to resign after being there for 15 years.  I did not know anything about  salary or how we were going to make it as we had no stock - we had nothing really.  All I knew I trusted this man implicitly and I knew within myself we were going to make it.  

The five of us that resigned at the time sat around a table in a small office.  I still remember my first sale -- it was from a Company that have been with me for years . To cut the story here,  we are now the number one promotional items Company in Trinidad after just 2 years.  The passion we had inside to make it drove us to do what we needed to do to make it.  We enjoyed every second of it and we had love all around us. 

I do understand that not everyones workplace is going to be the same - and I  do know that we need to have an income to live but what I also know is that when your follow your passion and do it with love then you will be where you want to be faster than you can imagine.  I heard someone say not to long ago -- If you want to become a millionaire then help someone else become one :). 

Dont worry about the vacation that is needed sometimes - instead set up the life that you dont need to run from and everyday will be a vacation.  I smile at Monday mornings. We all have our stress to deal with day in day out sometimes but when your heart sings with the essense of life, when you inhale gratitude and let out peace -- Your world becomes sanctuary ....... :)

Finding your way !

Finding your way is never easy -- following a path that you are comfortable with and the path that takes you away from the judgement of others is very difficult.  We were born and then before you know it belief systems was handed to you and we all followed without a question. We were told if we  question the wrath will be upon us so we sat back and just followed. 

But then one day the search began - the questions that kept nagging at you in your heart had to come out and you start that shift - that freedom within to explore and understand - who am I and what am I here for.  We all have this within us but some see it and some choose not to ask the questions. Some find their path and they are contented with what they have chosen. 

We were judged based on whether we ask questions or we dont.  I live in a world where every religion believes they are the right way and that we will feel the wrath upon us if we dont follow.  But is it really so ?  I learnt now we find our own way - shine our own light and connect with our maker in the most comfortable way known to us.  We should be passionate of getting to know and loving our God the best way we know how. 

We should treat all of mankind with unconditional love regardless of what religion or path they have chosen to take.  Isnt this the true message?  Isnt this how God loves us ?  Unconditionally?  We often try to find our way - find our path - and we search and search out there to get the information we need to take the next step but we bypass looking within.  When we are passionate about who we are and what we stand for then we have defined ourself.   When we connect with God we need not search any longer as we found what we have been searching for right inside of us.  Our higher self will never steer us wrong if we just learn to connect on a pure level and listen to the voices within. 

I heard something today --they were talking about -- IMAGINATION -- he said "I -- Magi ---- Nation"  we are a nation of magic.  We can create only if we allow ourselves to imagine what we want out of life and love and then the magic is created.  We all know the saying -- you bring about what u think about. 

Lets connect - lets leave the fact that we follow a particular religion to dissuade us from being the best we can be to each other. We all try to find our way - but we can only do this by being true to ourselves.  The people and signs are all there to help us on our way if we just pay attention them.  Our path is a journey - a journey not based on the belief system given to us but by the belief system we create for ourselves from our hearts.